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I just have to share what a wonderful, great, happy weekend I had.
This time last year I was a basket case, and it's times like these that
show me how far I've come. My heart is so full of thankfulness...I can
see myself blooming again.
It started off Saturday when my daughter and I went out to some craft
shows...packed to gills with people, woman with kids in strollers, and
Jen and I just walked around looking at eveything and buying a few
things, cool, calm, and collected. I could not have done this before
without feeling a sense of anxiety..first of all because I was with
someone else, and secondly because it was so packed with people.
Next we went to Best Buys (a sort of electronic store)to look at some
Palm Pilots for Christmas presents for two of my sons. Being Saturday
afternoon the place was packed. And all the clerks were busy.
Normally I wouldn't go near a place like that on a weekend...Monday
morning would have been it for me..in and out fast. We had to have
been in there for at least an hour and a half....again not one trace of
anxiety or panic or tiredness. Next to get something to eat...another
one of my problems. Once I order I used to feel stuck. But again, all
was fine, we even sat and talked afterwards over coffee. A great day
with my daughter that has been a long time coming.
Yesterday my family all come over to celebrate Jennifer's 30th
birthday. That meant 10 adults and 5 kids running around and one
newborn. We just ordered pizza. They were all there about 6 hours.
Again, not one bit of anxiety or tiredness or nervous tension from the
noise...just fun and enjoyment.
I know this is long, but I just can't get over how being on the right
meds can make such a difference in my life. If you had only known me
before this, you wouldn't believe the difference. Philip and Margrove
remember when I was so bad. This time last year I would have been worn
out and washed out for at least 2-3 days after last night. I never
would have been able to go and do what I did Saturday...it would have
been impossible. I am so happy I never gave up and kept looking for
the right pdoc. And I'm well over my med phobia...if this is what I
have to take to lead a normal life, then bring it on baby. And it's
not just the meds alone. With them I am able to put into practice the
CBT I learned before meds. So for me it's a combination of both I
needed.
Thanks for listening. I'm even looking forward to Chistmas this
year...tree and all. Last year it was like a morgue here. No tree, no
nothing. Joe's not too happy (hehe)- has to lug all that stuff down
from the attic, but he's happy I'm happy.
To those in the group who aren't where they want to be yet, just keep
hanging in there. If it could happen to me, it can happen to anyone!
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What a great mood and a great weekend!!!
I am so happy for you..I remember your earlier posts and
as they say "you've come a long way Baby~" (I know it was
a cig ad but so what!) xo I am so happy to hear you are going
to do the tree/light thing, what a magical Christmas you will have.
God bless you. I am too pooped, but I will play the music! LOL
Just got her off the bus, it takes me a few to
get into a normal breathing pattern. LOL I feel
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